Floods causing thousands to flee their homes in South Kalimantan, an intense earthquake destroying houses and killing people in West Sulawesi, signs of intensified volcanic activity were seen on Semeru, and the COVID-19 pandemic is surging — not ending. I didn't have road maps for navigating my reactions to the news. I was unable to keep up, m y brain over-expanded and ran out of space. When you are exposed to too much at once you'd rather absorb less. Y ou become desensitized. Like a leak that overflows rapidly from a bucket full of water. My instinct told me to shut myself down from external chaos; I might have read the news but they just went through me without leaving a trace. A coping mechanism so they wouldn’t have an impact on me — so my head wouldn't explode into chunks. It was so chaotic that I didn’t know what to believe or where to start. For a person who tends to get excited easily, it was surprising that nothing could grab my attention. Nothing of g...